I sit here in my little enclave at the back of the garage pretending that I am willing myself to be a writer, actor, athlete, community volunteer and so forth; when in reality I am a motionless being wandering from thought to thought with no rudder to steer and concentrate these careening thoughts into a creative project. My true challenge is taming this unruly ADHD mind.
It occurred to me that perhaps my idleness is the true indication that I am nothing more than a “want to be.” I wonder, after these many countless days of false starts and unfulfilled promises that I make to myself, if I have been deliberately deceiving myself.
A quote by André Maurois that I read today stimulated this thinking. “If men could regard the events of their own lives with more open minds, they would frequently discover that they did not really desire the things they failed to obtain.”
There are many quotes and prayers in our culture that advocate for patiently waiting with hope that our true fulfillment will arrive. But how does one know when it does arrive?
Today, I am a bit skeptical, but as the prayers of the downtrodden advise, I shall cling to hope!
I hope you have a delightful experience today and every day henceforth.
What is there to say about me? I am not sure if I am typical or not, average or not, smart or not, BUT I think I definitely have a sense of humor. I am an aging baby boomer wondering if I have something to say about the world as I see it.
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